i miss dancing. when did i stop dancing??
i know, i know. i teach tap classes one night a week. so not the same. teaching is different than dancing. being in class. performing. learning combinations. routines.
and i don't just miss tap. i miss DANCING. i miss moving my whole body. stretching my legs, my arms. trying to pretend i can leap and kick and turn. while tap has always been my forte, i'm not bad at the other stuff too! and i miss dancing at hope college. classes with ray and steven and linda and even dawn and max. i miss being pushed and challenged to live up to the other outstanding dancers in jazz and modern class, and yet i never felt silly or embarrassed even when i wasn't one of the best dancers in the room. the teachers and the relationships among students were such that i felt challenged but never put down.
when i took off all my outer layer tonight (it's cold outside!) i was left with black leggings, maroon leg warmers, and a green tank top. i feel like i'm dressed for dance class, and i can't help but dance around my apartment a little (in spite of the confined space). and the truth is, at this point in my life, i won't even dance again like i did at hope. i won't have have a week with 40-50 hours of dancing. i won't even be able to take 6 dance classes at a time. my only real hope of a consistent dance life is possibly a tap company (fingers crossed for auditions next august). hm.
meanwhile, i just looked up the schedules for giordano dance center and joel hall dance center, and while things are a little psycho right now with holidays and essays to grade and lessons to plan... i'm hopeful that while i'm still on christmas break in january i can go to a few classes and try and find a non-tap class to take regularly. and i'm already planning on taking an advanced tap class starting in january. now if i can just stay consistent with that goal. life will be looking up.
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