Monday, August 29, 2005

when it comes to God, i want to feel something
i want to experience Him
i think i'm always looking for that great
emotion

but what if that's not it

what if my life as an artist
my love for poetry
poetry is instant access to emotion
what if i'm looking for God
to be instant
and emotional

what if He's not
at least not always
have i been looking for years
for something that just
isn't there?

posted by KTB at 10:18 PM

2 Comments:

  • I want to talk to you about this, and just share ideas and doubts and questions. My lens is one of a recovering Pentecostal, a form of faith that's all about instant and emotional and even fanatical ways of connecting with God, of knowing God. And I couldn't do it, I was constantly exhausted and when I wasn't "high" on God I thought that there was something drastically wrong. All of this, in a way I still can't explain fully, led me to nearly join the Catholic Church because of the quiet I found in Mass.

    Anyhow, this is a longer comment than I intended, so let's talk on the phone sometime after this weekend (which will be necessary anyhow!). :)

    By Blogger mer, at 11:58 AM  

  • see, i come from the opposite... raised Catholic and became sick of feeling nothing, and just going through the motions of church. in high school i discovered contemporary non-demonination church, and with hope college came gospel choir and sacred dance and gathering and... by junior year even all that felt empty. i guess maybe it's a matter of balance? of finding what's right for yourself to connect with God? i don't know. we'll talk soon for sure. :)

    By Blogger KTB, at 3:46 PM  

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